Despite how hot it gets, I'm thankful that our church does not have air condition. It forces that the windows to be open, which means worship can be heard all around the block. Awesome.

My goodness, I hope this summer is as exciting and fun as my Google calendar makes it seem.

Things are well, they seem to be coming together and almost making sense. I try not to understand too much, because that's usually when things go awry. I'm in Great Hands, i don't need to understand the rest!!

We sign the lease for our new apartment in a week! 4 weeks until school is out, and then it's go-time!!!

I love sunshine and spring and you.

This weekend was the happiest I have been in such a long time. Nothing monumental happened, nor did I experience any life-altering moments, but I felt alive. I laughed and danced and enjoyed the friendship and fellowship of people I hold dear to my heart.

I consumed too many calories, paid too much for gasoline, and didn't even think about my schoolwork, but I'll gladly make up for that during the week for the moments over the weekend. I needed it more than I needed to lose those 10 pounds, save that extra $30, or get the A+.

I feel joyful for all of the best reasons possible
(and it feels really good).

Putting my happiness in stock of things/people/hearts that have proven not to be so transient pays off. It felt good to scream about freezing water with friends and to laugh and worship with PA friends who continue to love me, despite how often I hide from them or mess up. I'm so thankful for these things.

As goofy as it may sound, this weekend was some sort of revival for me and it feels so good to be back.

Love, love, love.

sometimes i still feel the bruise.

I really wish they had consulted me before they called it quits.. or a "break", but anyone in any relationship knows what that means.
I'm excited for their new projects and all of that, but what the heck?! It's actually none of my business and I'm aware of that.
I'm just sad (and embarrassed by how sad I am).
It's like a break up! We have been lovingly involved for quite a few years now.. Makes me happy when I'm sad, dances with me, always always goes on roadtrips with me.. It was a pretty stable relationship. I'll miss you, The Format.

[On the bright side, this just substantially increased my creepy dreams and stalking possibilities. Watch out, Nateypoo.]

 

The problem with taking a nap at 10pm is that it makes it quite difficult to fall back asleep once you are too awake again.. so here we are!

Rock of Love 2 is a pretty big disappointment. I can listen to The Mountain Goats all day every day and never get tired of it. Moon Over Goldsboro is the most beautiful song. Blue koolaid is such a confusing drink. My dreams have been INSANE lately.

It’s ridiculously cold outside (AND INSIDE) and I still haven’t mastered the art of wearing a coat. I see sunshine and blue skies and just assume that that means it’s 60 degrees outside, which leaves me looking like a (very cold) fool outside for the rest of the day in 18 degree weather. Maybe I’ll learn by the time Spring rolls around (which is not coming anywhere near soon enough).

I’m taking a class during Winter Session at UD and I loveeee it. I have it for about 3 hours twice a week, so I still have free time to do as I please. I’m taking “Families and Their Communities” and it just might be one of my favorite classes yet. I still have 4 day weekends, which meant enough time for a Montreal holiday! Allie, Shannon, and I ventured up to the great north for a weekend of innovative heating, exploration, dancing,  old friends, new friends, and fun. I’d say we were successful in all of our endeavors, particularly the therapeutic confessionals that made us painfully aware that we’re all crazier than we thought. Oh well, at least I’m not alone in the insanity.  I couldn’t think of two better friends with whom I could be caught up in it. We didn't get caught smuggling goods across the border and we had an encounter with Liberty from Degrassi.. what else could you ask for, really?

The only problem with escaping to montreal to forget everything else is finding that it’s usually still waiting upon your return. Crazy how that works.

This is my last Martin Luther King Jr day as a teenager. No, there is no correlation between the two.. just saying. The more I think about it, it freaks me out.. so I just don’t think about it. However, I AM thinking a mustache bash celebration would be fitting. or something involving a pinata.

Allie and I are going apartment shopping tomorrow morning! I’m looking forward to living somewhere with an actual kitchen. I’ve been on a strange cooking and baking kick lately and it’s terribly annoying to have pans that won’t fit in the playschool sink or stove. I’m determined to finally make a good peanut thai dinner, but my attempts continuously fail. It’s getting better! There is hope! If i ever get it down, you're all invited to come eat it and drink vitamin water with us.

I always think of clever things to post in this, or post under the influence of strong emotions, but I forget the clever things and delete the rest. I’ve realized that I’m not happy unless there’s revolving change of something or another in my life. Unfortunately, the things I want to be stable end up changing and the things I want a change from usually stick around. I guess I just spend the rest of my time trying to find a balance between it all and keep my focus on the positive things and priorities in my life. I feel like I'm walking around on eggshells most of the time, but that's okay. It teaches me to live life more gracefully. or something.  life keeps moving and i love it, even when i don't want to love it.

Livejournal elves will attack me if I write anymore, so this means I am done and off to find 5 more blankets for my bed tonight. Peace out, livejournal land!

Procrastination causes crazy acts! I read through most of my entire livejournal existence since 2002 this afternoon. Holy cow, I was embarrassing!! I guess the only relief for that is that a) I was 14 b) I can acknowledge the fact that I was embarrassing, (hopefully) indicating that I've moved on from that point in my life.  I was in tears from laughing reading some of them and remembering the silly details. It's funny to see the shift in priorities and things I find worthy enough to write about. Even the not so embarrassing-still emotionally hard to read entries got me thinking. I've come a long way! It also reminded me and explained why I have the problems that I have today.  All the same, it's confirmed why I'm so happy and thankful for the people in my life NOW.  I guess it's sufficient to say that I'm human and I'm glad that I've felt the whole range of emotions that we are made to feel. It's made me who I am now, and I'm pretty okay with that. However, I'm all about continuing to fill my life with the happy things that seem to have my heart bursting these days.

So I offer my public apology for anyone who knew me back then, and a sincere appreciation for those who dealt with me and decided to still stick around today. :0]

I have one more final and I'm done for the semester! i should probably sleep before this exam at some point, but first! I received an email today from Yaky, one of my Roma campers who wanted to move to America to be with me and wrote me a gut-wrenching love letter before we left camp. It made me smile, so I thought i'd share. Too cute!

HY BABY GIRL!!!!

I'M VERY OK BUT THE KNOWLEDGE IS VERY HARD.I OLWAYS RUN OUT OF MY TIME:( TOMI IS KISSING YOU:) AND MEEEE:D I'M VERY MISS YOU. YOU WAS THE LITTLE PART OF MNY LIFE. I HOPE I WILL SEE YOU MAY LATER IN THE CAMP:)

END MESSAGE: XOXO YAKY  I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU
2007.12.11.

 

Girls, remember Angus, Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging? Or the sequel, On The Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God?
They were all the rage in about 6th grade and they were hilarious at the time. Allie and I bought On the Bright Side tonight on audio book for $6. I think it's even funnier now than it was before. It make for excellent drives.

I have 3 more finals and then I'm done with this semester!
I'm taking Winter Session, but i'm looking forward to the class and weekend trips. HEYYY montreal.


Things are going really well. :] I really just wanted to suggest that you all go to your local Barnes & Noble and pick up the cassettes of your favorite middle school book series. It will be worth it!

I hope everyone is keeping warm!

 It's always discomforting to realize your battles are bigger than you're willing to admit.

I shouldn't stay up past midnight when it's this cold.